Before I Let Go by Marieke Nijkamp DNF Review: I’ve Forgotten Why I Read This One

Posted March 15, 2018 by Sophia

Before I Let Go by Marieke Nijkamp DNF Review: I've Forgotten Why I Read This One

Content and Trigger Warning: This book contains content that may be triggering to some, which we will try our best provide below the synopsis.
Before I Let Go by Marieke Nijkamp DNF Review: I’ve Forgotten Why I Read This OneBefore I Let Go by Marieke Nijkamp
Other Books: This Is Where It Ends
Published by Sourcebooks Fire on January 2nd 2018
Genres: Young Adult, Contemporary
Format: eBook, ARC
Source: Publisher

Best friends Corey and Kyra were inseparable in their snow-covered town of Lost Creek, Alaska. When Corey moves away, she makes Kyra promise to stay strong during the long, dark winter, and wait for her return.

Just days before Corey is to return home to visit, Kyra dies. Corey is devastated―and confused. The entire Lost community speaks in hushed tones about the town's lost daughter, saying her death was meant to be. And they push Corey away like she's a stranger.

Corey knows something is wrong. With every hour, her suspicion grows. Lost is keeping secrets―chilling secrets. But piecing together the truth about what happened to her best friend may prove as difficult as lighting the sky in an Alaskan winter...

A copy of the book was provided for review purposes - thank you! Receiving a copy does not guarantee a positive review and therefore does not affect the opinion or content of the review.

Sometimes when I read a book, I forget why I wanted to read the book in the first place. Before I Let Go is, unfortunately, one of those books I forgot why I even bothered. It seemed interesting? Maybe last semester I read a different synopsis (probably not)?

Was I asleep? (It’s possible – I’m a tired college kid who appears to have enough sleep.)

Before I Let Go is set in the present with Corey returning home to Lost Creek, only to find out her best friend Kyra is dead and the town that once ostracized Kyra is suddenly mourning her. And for some reason whatsoever, the role is reversed and Corey is looked upon as an outsider who moved into the wrong city.

I was expecting a lot more suspense and build up but I got none of it. Nada. Zip. I got a lot of this:

Lost doesn’t take well to change, but we learned to understand her. She was happy.

And this.

She spread happiness. Kyra finding a place here was a sign to all of us that Lost can change – and change for the better. After all those years, she’d finally come home to us, and we to her. She was at peace.

And this.

With her art, she showed us the future. And once you understand that, you’ll find Kyra’s truth.

Same message, all a different variation.


No suspense whatsoever aside from a mild curiosity. 🤷

Eventually, all of it felt repetitive and there didn’t seem to be any progress aside from finding out what kind of person Kyra was before she died (even that felt a little confusing sometimes).

The writing is readable though. I went through Before I Let Go relatively quickly, at least the small progress that I chose to go through before my attention got taken away by The Heart Forger.

I still don’t know why I wanted to read this book. I expected more, I got virtually nothing but an early DNF in the year. 😪

Sophia started blogging in February 2012 for the hell of it and is surprisingly still around. She has a GIF for nearly everything, probably listens to too much K-Pop and is generally in an existential crisis of sorts (she's trying her best). In 2020, she graduated with a Bachelor's in Communications and minor in Women's Studies. More of her bookish reviews and K-pop Roundups can be found at The Arts STL.

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8 responses to “Before I Let Go by Marieke Nijkamp DNF Review: I’ve Forgotten Why I Read This One

  1. Vee

    Yeah I really didn’t like this book, either. It sounded really cool but it didn’t really make sense? It was as if the author was trying really hard to make something meaningful. I just didn’t see the point of it at all.
    At least you have The Heart Forger!

    • Well, yes. At least this book was before The Heart Forger because then Incan be EXCITED and not disappointed straight after, haha.

      I didn’t get the point either. Trying too hard, but it back fired.

      • Vee

        I read the book and didn’t have anything positive to read after. Lucky you, that you read The Heart Forger right after!
        I wish authors wouldn’t try so hard, and just let the story flow. Those are the best stories.