I used to find writing reviews easy.
I wrote a review for virtually every book that I read since I started Bookwyrming Thoughts in November 2012. In fact, reviews probably made up the majority of book blogging back then, aside from promotions. But since late 2015 or early 2016, I’ve been struggling with writing reviews. Things happened, sure, but normally I can get back into reviewing so easily.
Maybe I used to be a super hyper new blogger puppy who thought blogging was super shiny and new and pretty and wanted to do all the things. Can anyone else relate to this? I’ve seen it, though.
But now? Now I feel like I’m struggling.
Sure, I struggled a lot back then with books that unleashed no feelings whatsoever from me aside from one word or two words with maybe a maximum of three sentences. I’m sure lots of bloggers can say the same. #thestruggleisreal.
But it wasn’t this bad?
My voice feels flat sometimes.
There are times when I start writing a review and putting thoughts on paper but three sentences later, I look up and realize, “Oh, that doesn’t sound like me. I sound like 15-year-old me who just started blogging and had little experience writing.”
Why am I so harsh on myself sometimes. I just want my writing to be the best that I can showcase of myself.
They’re not as fun to write anymore.
I have a smol attention span sometimes, which is why I’m even surprised I lasted six years of book blogging. At the rate I go sometimes, I would have twelve blogs by now, all of them dealing with different topics (occasionally I’ll go back to a former topic). I think I’m having a blogging crisis.
But reviews are beginning to not be as fun – what was once enjoyable is now a bit of a struggle. And maybe… maybe this is why I experienced burnout in my internship. Oops.
A lot of bloggers have been helpful enough to provide different ways to spice things up with reviews – all of which are helpful! Changing things up is nice and I do it myself occasionally because otherwise, I’ll get bored. Bored = no posts. Bored = lack of posts. Bored = posts I wouldn’t read if I didn’t blog.
I don’t know what or how to say things sometimes.
Coherently, that is. I know how I feel and an idea, but I have no clue how to execute it on paper without sounding like the worst reviewer on the planet. Or feeling like I didn’t give the book enough justice – screaming isn’t exactly professional in a review methinks. Screaming about books on Discord, though, that’s another story.
I get so exhausted.
I don’t think this one applies to book reviews – I think it applies to every aspect of blogging sometimes.
I love blogging, I really do. I love interacting with other bloggers and readers, especially those I’ve met on Discord, who I talk to on an often basis. I love creating posts and talking about the things I love with those who stop by – there’s so much to learn about each other! Let’s connect and scream about the little things that make us happy in life.
But OMG, it can be exhausting sometimes. It’s not that I don’t like blogging or want to quit blogging – it’s more like I want to lie down and do nothing for a month or two. At the exact same time, I don’t want to do anything – not blogging, not reading, not commenting, etc. I want to do something, anything because I would get terribly bored. I’m in a conflict with myself and sometimes, I don’t know how I’m going to get out of it if I ever do. 😭