I’m Not Setting Goals for Myself in 2020 (Or Rather, Not Blogging Goals)

Posted February 19, 2020 by Sophia
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Wow, I can’t believe I’m launching this post out into the world in mid-February. It is what it is though.

Back in 2018, I thought it would be a really good idea to keep myself accountable throughout the year by creating a blog post of goals I would hope to accomplish.*

*Um, yeah… that post is super old and very off-brand with featured images because I moved to WordPress later that month and didn’t focus on branding until later.

I did the same in 2019, and for both those years, it turned out to be okay? Good considering how I have a lot on my plate? I definitely don’t give myself as much as credit as I should. 😪 Actually, I never give myself enough credit.

I wanted to create goals for 2020.

2020 vision and all that. If only I got an actual perfect vision, though. It took me a few years to realize my vision isn’t going to get better, just worse.

I even had a draft ready to be written since October 2019 with a title. A funny title, too, because I try to be funny even if I might not be. Except sometime between October and December 2019, I dropped off? Lost motivation? Lost energy? More than likely both.

I mean, even the number of blog posts I wrote was a depressing amount. We’re not counting the end of October or the month of November since that was for a class project. It was fun, but it took way too much from me, and I basically fell behind in all the review copies I had. (Look, summer me felt like I could take on the world and make it my oyster. Turns out, summer me was a whopping liar.)

So I told myself in 2020 I’d skip out.

I don’t mean I won’t create goals. It’s kind of in my nature, plus I’m graduating this year??? I do need my ducks lined up together somewhat considering how I have a portfolio defense and I need to be ready when I’m not (or I’ll be ready physically, not mentally; don’t we love anxiety). My goals this year just won’t be 100% set in stone.

Self-care is my priority this year.

I have a habit of taking on too much and not knowing when it might be too much until it is too much. And even though it’s too late for regrets, I still do anyway.

  • Taking on three review requests in the summer? Bad idea with two internships and a job. I still have to start reading two of them, and one of them I still need to write a review.
    • I’m more than likely going to be showering them with apologies.
    • I’m actually rereading one of them right now. That makes up for it, right?
  • Requesting 2020 ARCs on Netgalley late summer? Okay, I thought I would have enough time. I got super picky with my ARCs by then, though, so I’m not in a horrible hole.
    • 15 ARCs total is still a high number in my opinion, even if my Netgalley ratio is high from all my timeliness in high school. It’s like high school me took a trip to college me and asked, “Hey, how stressed will this fledgling adult be?” and college me responded, “Super stressed. Brace yourself.”
    • Also, I just don’t like having a million things on my to-do list. My mom would say I’m lazy. That’s true here.
      • I think I just don’t want to be overwhelmed by 386+ ARCs. That’s also true.
  • Going full storm into blogging? Really bad idea, but also I did have to do something for a class project… so that’s not exactly on me other than poor timing. I should have taken the class earlier.
    • It’s not my professor’s fault don’t you dare go after them.
    • I would’ve taken the class in an earlier semester but it didn’t work out. 😤
    • In all honesty, this was still a good move because why put in more work when I can put in work to what I have?

So self-care is definitely a priority. Will I actually learn not to take on too much before it’s too late? Probably not until I have a personal shoulder devil constantly saying, Stop doing this to yourself!

More than likely I won’t listen. I can hear my mother calling me stubborn.

She’s right. Stubbornness has done me some good at times, though. Other times it backfires.

Setting goals takes a lot of energy.

It takes a lot of time and energy to come up with multiple goals for an entire year.

It takes energy that I, quite frankly, did not have. Or at least, extra energy. I definitely have enough to get through day-to-day tasks, but nothing more than that at the moment. I spent a lot of my winter break being a hermit and watching shows and movies or playing games. Sometimes I read a book or wrote a draft. 95% of the time I ignored the blog. And 95% of the time I ignored the universe other than rolling into Discord every so often.

I want to be a little more flexible.

Putting my goals out there each year felt like I was setting it down 100%. It’s great to keep myself organized, though, because everything is in one place and I can’t lose it. And I definitely can’t lose my own blog unless I do something horribly, horribly wrong.

That would be a little shocking. Hilariously funny, but shocking. I did break my own email servers once and it took me like a week to notice, so there’s that.

But I want things to be more flexible without having that constant nagging feeling. I’m that person who, when I should be relaxing, can’t really relax. It’s like I feel weird not being productive. (Or maybe it’s just been so ingrained into society to constantly be hustling, we often forget self-care is necessary in order to hustle.)

2020 is going to be a huge transition period.

I’M GRADUATING! Only this time, I’m not entirely sure where I’m going after. Back in 2016, I knew I was going to college, but what’s next after college? Continuing graduate school? Haha, not enough money. All I know is I’m getting plopped out into Adulting as a full-fledged adult with a degree.

Just writing this gives me lowkey anxiety.

But not knowing exactly what’s next kind of makes it hard to set goals in my opinion. I didn’t exactly have a 100% set schedule, but I had a bit of an idea and now it’s unknown until it’s known. Scary thoughts to think about and not something I’m really going to think about. (But you know… this might change in a few months after posting, who knows? Future me can worry about that.)

So blogging goals in 2020? 100% out the window. Plus, I just want to enjoy blogging without worrying about the endless tasks at the moment. There’s something nice about cleaning up years worth of past content, but it’s also good to take a break once in a while. 2020 is my year of taking that break and I don’t feel setting them up is the way to go about it.

Let’s talk, bookwyrms: are you a goals person? If so, have you ever chosen not to? What’s your stance on goals?

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Sophia has a GIF for nearly everything and is frequently in a Hogwarts House crisis. Unlike her personality in blog posts, she's a socially awkward recent college grad who majored in Communications. More of her bookish reviews can be found at The Arts STL.

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14 responses to “I’m Not Setting Goals for Myself in 2020 (Or Rather, Not Blogging Goals)

  1. Great post! Hopefully no goals will give you the freedom you need now.

    I do love goals and lists, but I tend to be waaay to optimistic about them so I panick and quiet.. I am also working on having less things to do at one time to keep my sanity 🙂

  2. Way to go, SOPH! I’m not big on setting goals for myself either because 9 times out of 10, they never happen. Or I’m just too scared or back out too quickly. But this year I’m going to create a vision board and see how it feels to actually SEE my goals and plans out on paper works for me. I’m so caught up in my head a lot that I don’t know what I want until it’s right in front of me. Hope this idea works for your “goals” too! Also you’re a Communications major too yay I was one when I was in college too but more for the Journalism/media production aspect of it. I wish I could afford grad school right now but the thing is, I don’t know WHAT or WHY I’d go back for, especially after 3 years. (I graduated in 2017). I change my mind every five minutes, it seems lol. But anyway I hope you and your goals work out. It’s never too late!

    • Sophia

      “I’m not big on setting goals for myself either because 9 times out of 10, they never happen.” MOOD. I sometimes feel like that happens to me more often than not, lol. I hope the vision board works out for you and you accomplish all that you want to this year!

  3. This is quite a big year for you. I remember having an anxiety attack at my loan exit interview and passing out. The whole end-of-college-here-I-come-real-world felt really real for the first time. It’s good that you are giving yourself room to breathe, and really, goals are something to work towards, but it’s ok if you fall short. Good luck with this final year of school!

  4. I think goals can be great, but I try not to be strict about them. I just kind of see them as something to work toward…so if you get stressed over having set goals, or just don’t want to deal with the idea of them, good for you! Sometimes it’s best to just let all these “extra” things like blogging and reading be fun and not so much stress!!

    -Lauren

    • Sophia

      “Sometimes it’s best to just let all these “extra” things like blogging and reading be fun and not so much stress!!” Completely agree with you on this. Too much stressing out on the extras just makes it seem more like a chore.

  5. I like goals too…but I sometimes feel it can get overwhelming and trying to meet them can be stressful. Therefore I’m setting essentially no goals…except to keep reading books I enjoy and DNF’ing things I don’t like.

    • Sophia

      That’s a good plan to have! (Also that is a huge mood, especially when it starts being the end of the year and I have 58229 other tasks.)

  6. I am truly a goal orientated kind of person. I like to set goals and knock them out of the park to feel like I am making progress. But then at the same time, I also like to leave some room to be flexible and I am perfectly okay failing my goals because it doesn’t mean I have failed necessarily, just that life didn’t go according to plan and that happens! I like the idea of being flexible and hope it works out for you x

    • Sophia

      Well said, Olivia! I’m still trying to work on accepting that life happens and not everything goes according to plan (hard, but trying is a step?). And thank you, I hope 2020 is good to you! ❤

  7. I did start the 2020 with a flexible set of goals, unlike the previous years. And guess what? I am already failing at them miserably and probably gonna beat myself catching up. SO I am glad you were the sensible one and took the easy (and sensible) way out.

    Good luck on your final year!

    • Sophia

      Oh noooo I hope things turn around for you, and if not, just know that you’re doing great. ❤ Not gonna lie though, if I did set actual goals into stone, I would’ve been in the same boat and failing too. 😭